Tryin To Make Some Lemon-Aid...

So it has been a tough week... I am not sure yet, but I think I might block this blog to certain users or just only post on my private blog. I am still fighting with the city of Centerville to get my refund, I was about to make an emergency trip up their today, but I ended up working late so I can go with my old singles ward camping tomorrow night.

In talking to other people, I have herd from multiple people their horror stories of being arrested under close to the same circumstances. It makes me all the more angrier, and more a reason to fight. The way everything went down yes, causes some laughter (they even checked my uncles license to see if they can get 3 when he claimed my luggage) but frustration and hurt comes along with it.

Another thing that hurts, is that someone who I thought was a friend announced to everyone in relief society on Sunday what happened, without even talking to me beforehand. I was just starting to get "comfortable" in my ward, and I am having a tough time fighting Satan on this and wanting to even go back...

Today was I think a new low. My company gave me a raise. Not a very big one, but nice non the less. I know for a fact that not everyone got one, but what kills me inside was all the layoffs they did today. The took out the entire 2nd floor in my office, except four. I found out after it happened, and my heart sank. Some of them I have come to know and care about. There was roughly 20 employees that are now jobless, while I sit here with a bonus last check and raise now. I think the best part was how it happened, when my boss pulls me up to her desk, and wrote down on a mini yes, a mini sticky note 4 names. She then proceeds to tell me that they are the ONLY employees left. And then to find out the IT department is standing in the stairwell, listening to this whole thing take place. How heartless can some be? I know I need to be grateful for having a job, but it makes me sad to see others suffer. I just wish I could have said goodbye to some of them!

This is my current life, take it and love it... All I can do is look for the light at the end of the tunnel, and move forward. I am trying my hardest to make lemonade these days, but my lemons want to sting my eye...